2nd year soldier

On Good Friday, i officially turned a 2nd year soldier. It kinda feels good knowing i am one step closer to ORD and looking back at the past year, it realli has been a long long long year. I tink i should really be thankful to God for giving me my 8-5 posting. Never in my life would i expect myself to serve at the capacity i am at now while i am still in the army, all this while i am pursuing a part time degree in pgsm. But there is always so much more i could be doing. Like doing more in people work. Like going for more outings with people and making an impact in more lives. There is so much more i wanna do but i can feel God saying that now is not the time as yet and that i need to wait for yet an appointed time. The human mind has a tendency to not be able to see further than the natural but its faith that says that i trust in God and i that i am able to wait for it to come to pass. Meanwhile, i need to be realli focused on the things that i have. My ministry and the things i am doing. Bookstore still has so much more to grow in and it realli is excitin to visit attributes and see that one day generations bookstore will not just be the same but even better because the next generation is always better than the first. Anyway, the idea of ORD suonds so good but yet at the same time it would mean i will have to be done with this year first but the things that the rest of this year might hold is just so exciting and my simple human mind will never be to expect and forsee what God has planned. I look forward to the day of ORD and am excited at getting through this year.

It's been 1 week since coming back and true to hoGc. It has been ultimately exciting. The one word that has been endlessly on my mind is bookstore. There is just so much to do and it is really one of a huge task. There are too many things going through my mind at this moment that i dont know what to write and i know that there many things which i need to do and grow myself in. I need to grow and go up to another level.

B-A-C-K! First things first, the weather is disgustingly hot. Haha. Anyway, the feeling of home still needs a little getting used to, being away from it for 3 weeks. I am waiting to go to church and meet the people I have so missed for the past 3 weeks. Coming back from such a long trip, a part of me misses the carefree days where it was just food and sleep and play but I know there is another part in my heart where it is screaming out loud for the house of God and for God. I guess it is time to drop playtime and get things going again. As much as I miss the nonsense days in taiwan, hoGc is so much better. Haha. But then again, I could use the shopping in taiwan once in a deep dark blue moon.

Taiwan!

Life as a Christian is really so so exciting. So many things have really happened during this month. From going to taiwan to being in the choir. I realise one thing that keeps me going in my life and that is my dreams. No matter where I go in this Christian life, I realise that until the day that the dreams God placed in my life comes to past, I stay unsatisfied and not happy with the current situation I am in. Going to taiwan is really a big thing for me. It is the first time i am ever going to be away from church for so long. Despite the fact that i feel more ready now than ever to leave the comforts of the house of God, it is always another thing to go for such a period of time but in my heart, i know i need to go. I remember once in bmt while we were doing our morning run, i saw a plane flew past where we were running and i told God that the next time i fly, i wanna fly to do His work. Situations have not turned out as i had hoped but i know in my heart, God has his plans and the best of all, it always turns out for good.

The fun's only just begun and it is sooo exciting. I had a discipleship class with pastors and many other people on Saturday night and it was about keeping our idealism. It's like as youths we are so idealistic people but some how along the way people slowly slowly lose it. The worst thing is that once its lost, its extremely hard to gain it back. Pastor also shared that we need to have something that deeply anchors us in church so that we will not lose our idealism. People often say that idealism cannot feed us. I feel that its more along the lines of it's better to have love and lost than not to have love at all. Although we may not end up fulfilling our dreams, but at the end of the day is better to have tried and succeeded or die trying than to not try and regret when we are old and no longer have the ability to do what we were able to do. My life is really on an upward spiral now and i am really glad that i am able to support the church in so much more ways. I am making my life count, are u?

It's official, i am posted to 9 sig bn and i got my stay out. I am beginning to start working as well. Working there sometimes makes me lose faith in people like how ugly sometimes people can get and how you do the work but other people get the credit and how it is just a never ending cycle of work. But at the end of the day, everytime i turn my eyes back to Jesus and somehow the faith returns and my heart softens again. Anyway, back on more interestin stuff. Finally i am doing more and i cannot wait to get started. BMI and bookstore ogl. I cannot believe it that i am actually an ogl. Haha. Anyway let's get started!!!!

my spec trainee course is coming to an end and i am going to be posted out next week. will be going to 9 sig. Heard from many sources that it is a stay out posting which is good. With it, comes many thoughts too. Too many things to think about about 9 sig. It will be too long a list. will post more about it again when i am there. :)